Just the other day I got told these exact words:
JUST BUSY; ALWAYS FORGETTING TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE
This is what I heard:
TO BUSY TO GIVE OUR RELATIONSHIP ANY NURTURING. IT IS NOT IMPORTANT NOW.
After reading this message again, a few days later (only minutes ago) it kinda changes the way this blog was gonna go. I had not read it again until I opened the message so that I could get the wording right for this blog. Now, reading it again it doesn't sound so hurtful. In the heat of the moment this sentence (how I construed it) devastated me for 2 whole days.
I know that we are all busy. I know that no one takes the time WE should to nurture the relationships and people that we love. I hope that in the VERY LITTLE bit of time I take to nurture these relationships the people I love know that I am sincere and that I DO TRULY love them.
I get upset because my best friend doesn't call, write, email, text, or set forth any way of contacting me. But then I stop and think....I haven't either. So then I do. Usually, just a little text. Just something that says, "Hi. I was thinking about you. I love you. Have a good day". Nothing long or that requires any great amount of time. Usually, it is not reciprocated. Then a little longer down the timeline I get upset again. For the same reason. And this paragraph repeats itself time and time again.
I know that no matter what, my best friend will always be my best friend. I also know she loves me. I know she always will. I just miss her. And it makes me really mad.
So, please take from this what you will, but this cycle reminds me that I cannot fault anyone. When I feel like someone is "neglecting" me - I am probably doing the same. I use it as a reminder when I get busy NOT TO FORGET TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE.
oh sister of my heart how I miss you daily. I know that I do not try hard enough to keep up with you and it breaks my heart to read this today. you are on my mind everyday and while i know that it takes just a second to text...i just dont. I sit here crying, heart broke at the thought of you thinking that I could ever be mad at you; staring at your picture,thinking of our last trip together, whiskey sours and weddings....I am past ready for another trip with you. I have been mentally planning one for weeks. we need a spa resort with a night life. massages and liquor what more will we need? I have had a rough last few days and I firmly believe that the ONLY person who really cares about what I am feeling at any time is YOU. Joe trys his hardest but when I really need someone that someone is YOU. I only want you to be happy and I will try to be better at keeping in touch with you. Just remember you are not the only one who feels this way. What you feel I fell too. All my love sister
ReplyDeleteAll I can say at this point is that I miss you!!!!! I love you!! Hope your day is going better. I was touched that you still read my blog. I will get with you soon. Promise.
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