My Life: by Ghostchaser (a.k.a Brennen Dunn)
this is about my life my mom convinced me to writet this blog there will be spelling errors when im on this blog well to start of my grades are higher and school and i have decided to take tutoring during lunch and after school. soon i am going o get my own XBOX360 it is
awesome i cant wait for my testing.good bye.
signed, GHOSTCHASER
Sunday, February 26, 2012
What hurts the Most
Just the other day I got told these exact words:
JUST BUSY; ALWAYS FORGETTING TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE
This is what I heard:
TO BUSY TO GIVE OUR RELATIONSHIP ANY NURTURING. IT IS NOT IMPORTANT NOW.
After reading this message again, a few days later (only minutes ago) it kinda changes the way this blog was gonna go. I had not read it again until I opened the message so that I could get the wording right for this blog. Now, reading it again it doesn't sound so hurtful. In the heat of the moment this sentence (how I construed it) devastated me for 2 whole days.
I know that we are all busy. I know that no one takes the time WE should to nurture the relationships and people that we love. I hope that in the VERY LITTLE bit of time I take to nurture these relationships the people I love know that I am sincere and that I DO TRULY love them.
I get upset because my best friend doesn't call, write, email, text, or set forth any way of contacting me. But then I stop and think....I haven't either. So then I do. Usually, just a little text. Just something that says, "Hi. I was thinking about you. I love you. Have a good day". Nothing long or that requires any great amount of time. Usually, it is not reciprocated. Then a little longer down the timeline I get upset again. For the same reason. And this paragraph repeats itself time and time again.
I know that no matter what, my best friend will always be my best friend. I also know she loves me. I know she always will. I just miss her. And it makes me really mad.
So, please take from this what you will, but this cycle reminds me that I cannot fault anyone. When I feel like someone is "neglecting" me - I am probably doing the same. I use it as a reminder when I get busy NOT TO FORGET TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE.
JUST BUSY; ALWAYS FORGETTING TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE
This is what I heard:
TO BUSY TO GIVE OUR RELATIONSHIP ANY NURTURING. IT IS NOT IMPORTANT NOW.
After reading this message again, a few days later (only minutes ago) it kinda changes the way this blog was gonna go. I had not read it again until I opened the message so that I could get the wording right for this blog. Now, reading it again it doesn't sound so hurtful. In the heat of the moment this sentence (how I construed it) devastated me for 2 whole days.
I know that we are all busy. I know that no one takes the time WE should to nurture the relationships and people that we love. I hope that in the VERY LITTLE bit of time I take to nurture these relationships the people I love know that I am sincere and that I DO TRULY love them.
I get upset because my best friend doesn't call, write, email, text, or set forth any way of contacting me. But then I stop and think....I haven't either. So then I do. Usually, just a little text. Just something that says, "Hi. I was thinking about you. I love you. Have a good day". Nothing long or that requires any great amount of time. Usually, it is not reciprocated. Then a little longer down the timeline I get upset again. For the same reason. And this paragraph repeats itself time and time again.
I know that no matter what, my best friend will always be my best friend. I also know she loves me. I know she always will. I just miss her. And it makes me really mad.
So, please take from this what you will, but this cycle reminds me that I cannot fault anyone. When I feel like someone is "neglecting" me - I am probably doing the same. I use it as a reminder when I get busy NOT TO FORGET TO MAKE TIME FOR THOSE I LOVE.
A short word from Brennen
brennen dunn aka starchaser,ghostchaser says HI!!!who ever is reading this.from me.
Bad Aura 2
So, guess what. Bet you thought when (and if ) you read the blog "Bad Aura" for the 1st time it was outragoues. I know I did (even though it happened to me - every time I read it I am like "WOW"). Well, (now back to the guessing game...) guess what?!?!? It happened again. I haven't written this blog yet (even though the events occured in the middle of December) for several reasons. 1.) the time of year was just wrong (I was trying to keep a happy spirit - remember Betty Home Maker; 2.) just trying to wrap my mind around it; 3.)very, very upset - I know this usually creates very good blogging when you are very emotional about something but just didn't feel right.
While talking to my sister on the phone the other day she casually asks, "How's work? You still like it?" At this point I realized I had never really told her (or anyone for that matter) that anything had happened. So here it is...
About the middle of December I was driving my "bus" at work, just like any normal busy day. I had 3 staff and 3 "clients" on my bus at the time that I received a disbatch that some other "clients" needed picked up from a doctor's office. I went to go get them. On the way (about 3 blocks) from the doctor's office this IDIOT ( I know you are thinking that is not very nice - but...) ran a stop sign and hit the back quarter of the bus. (Back quarter meaning - driver side from behind rear tire to the back bumper). Now, that I am thinking about it, IDIOT is not the word - maybe GENIUS. (I will explain in a minute). I assessed all clients and staff - as I am very trained to do. Of course I contacted every one I was supposed to contact including the CEO (and or President; Owner; what have you) of the company and the Police. No one was hurt. Shaken up - a little but not hurt or even really upset (which was good considering I had a few on there who have been known to have some impulse and negative behavior control issues. Anyway, everyone was fine - not even in bad moods.
Police came, EMT's came....everything was assessed and documented. Police let us go about our business after they did thier initial report.......Just then as I put the van in Drive (to leave) the President (CEO, Owner, etc.) comes knocking on the door to the bus. He comes onto the bus and demands I go to the office and take a drug test. (Fine, I know that is policy). My biggest problem with this is that he could have asked if everyone was ok first or asked what the police said, or anything. He then turned and left.
I, of course, go to the office and take my drug test...all comes back clean. I then get every reassessed by our nurses. I then spend the next 2 hours doing all of the reports that are required. He, the boss, passes me about 7 or 8 times during this whole process. I even have to ask him to let me into the back so I can get with the nurse to finalize all of my reports. Does he once say anything to me? No. Does he once say that he needs to speak to me when I am done? No. Does he even ask ME what happened? NO!!!!! So, there I am....still filing reports (even though I am now late to pick up Brennen)...when I get a call from my two kinda supervisors. When you are done, we need to talk to you. I say, OK. Not 5 minutes later they call again - "Are you done yet? We need to talk to you. Don't forget." OK ALREADY!!!!! Again, like 4 minutes later, "How much longer?" So, I excuse myself from the nurse's office (luckily I had just signed the last document) and go to their office.
And here is how the day (at work) ended - with the following conversation: The Boss "wants to take you off of driving temporarily." Why? I don't know. He just said he did. Not permanently, just for a little while. How long? I don't know. Just a while - maybe a few weeks. Why? I don't know. Why? Didn't he tell me? I am going to go talk to him. He left for the day. He called us as he was leaving and told us to tell you. I didn't do anything wrong. It was not even my fault. I wasn't speeding or anything. I did everything right. Why is he taking me off? Did the insurance company say? No. He just wants to for a while.
At that I left the building - of course in an uproar. No one was there to see my uproar except these two - but trust me - it was an uproar. So, all that weekend one of these supervisors kept texting me about how sorry they were and that they would accomodate me with different duties until I could go back to driving. I think they kept apologizing because they knew that it was not right. It was not ethical or moral, or right.
Anyway, did what was asked of me over the next two weeks. At the end of each week going to Human Resources to see when I could get my position back or what else I needed to do. THEY did not even tell Human Resources what was going on or anything about it. So, I had him asking the questions trying to figure out what was going on from a management perspective. They WOULD NOT discuss it with him NOR MYSELF (trust me I tried). After 3 weeks had passed, I went to teh VPO and kinda demanded she talk to me and this is what she said. "Well, honestly, I don't think you will ever be a driver again. What 'the boss' has told me is: THERE ARE CERTAIN PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT BAD THINGS ARE ATTRACTED TO. NOT THAT THEY CAUSE BAD THINGS BUT THAT BAD THINGS JUST FIND THEM. HE HONESTLY, REALLY, BELIEVES THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THESE PEOPLE. THEREFORE IT IS TRAUMATIC FOR THE CLIENTS IF THESE BAD THINGS FIND YOU WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING. SO, NO, I DO NOT BELEIVE THAT HE WILL EVER LET YOU BE A DRIVER AGAIN. In my most sincerist form I asked if she was kidding. She was not. So, basically, again I have been accused of having a BAD AURA.
I have now gone back to my beginning position of doing residential care. I do not enjoy it and I do not like it. I am good at it. But it is NOT what I want to do. After 4 years, I have climed the ladder (almost to the top) and then have come all the way back down. I do like my schedule (which I set for myself). I work 3 days a week, doing 16 hour shifts. So, I get 8 hours overtime every week and I don't go in on my days off; I don't try to help the company; I just do my time and go home. Pretty sad, considering how dedicated I was and how much I loved some of the positions I had. Hmmmmm.......Sorry it was so long. Can you imagine if I had written it when it first happend?!?!?!?!
While talking to my sister on the phone the other day she casually asks, "How's work? You still like it?" At this point I realized I had never really told her (or anyone for that matter) that anything had happened. So here it is...
About the middle of December I was driving my "bus" at work, just like any normal busy day. I had 3 staff and 3 "clients" on my bus at the time that I received a disbatch that some other "clients" needed picked up from a doctor's office. I went to go get them. On the way (about 3 blocks) from the doctor's office this IDIOT ( I know you are thinking that is not very nice - but...) ran a stop sign and hit the back quarter of the bus. (Back quarter meaning - driver side from behind rear tire to the back bumper). Now, that I am thinking about it, IDIOT is not the word - maybe GENIUS. (I will explain in a minute). I assessed all clients and staff - as I am very trained to do. Of course I contacted every one I was supposed to contact including the CEO (and or President; Owner; what have you) of the company and the Police. No one was hurt. Shaken up - a little but not hurt or even really upset (which was good considering I had a few on there who have been known to have some impulse and negative behavior control issues. Anyway, everyone was fine - not even in bad moods.
Police came, EMT's came....everything was assessed and documented. Police let us go about our business after they did thier initial report.......Just then as I put the van in Drive (to leave) the President (CEO, Owner, etc.) comes knocking on the door to the bus. He comes onto the bus and demands I go to the office and take a drug test. (Fine, I know that is policy). My biggest problem with this is that he could have asked if everyone was ok first or asked what the police said, or anything. He then turned and left.
I, of course, go to the office and take my drug test...all comes back clean. I then get every reassessed by our nurses. I then spend the next 2 hours doing all of the reports that are required. He, the boss, passes me about 7 or 8 times during this whole process. I even have to ask him to let me into the back so I can get with the nurse to finalize all of my reports. Does he once say anything to me? No. Does he once say that he needs to speak to me when I am done? No. Does he even ask ME what happened? NO!!!!! So, there I am....still filing reports (even though I am now late to pick up Brennen)...when I get a call from my two kinda supervisors. When you are done, we need to talk to you. I say, OK. Not 5 minutes later they call again - "Are you done yet? We need to talk to you. Don't forget." OK ALREADY!!!!! Again, like 4 minutes later, "How much longer?" So, I excuse myself from the nurse's office (luckily I had just signed the last document) and go to their office.
And here is how the day (at work) ended - with the following conversation: The Boss "wants to take you off of driving temporarily." Why? I don't know. He just said he did. Not permanently, just for a little while. How long? I don't know. Just a while - maybe a few weeks. Why? I don't know. Why? Didn't he tell me? I am going to go talk to him. He left for the day. He called us as he was leaving and told us to tell you. I didn't do anything wrong. It was not even my fault. I wasn't speeding or anything. I did everything right. Why is he taking me off? Did the insurance company say? No. He just wants to for a while.
At that I left the building - of course in an uproar. No one was there to see my uproar except these two - but trust me - it was an uproar. So, all that weekend one of these supervisors kept texting me about how sorry they were and that they would accomodate me with different duties until I could go back to driving. I think they kept apologizing because they knew that it was not right. It was not ethical or moral, or right.
Anyway, did what was asked of me over the next two weeks. At the end of each week going to Human Resources to see when I could get my position back or what else I needed to do. THEY did not even tell Human Resources what was going on or anything about it. So, I had him asking the questions trying to figure out what was going on from a management perspective. They WOULD NOT discuss it with him NOR MYSELF (trust me I tried). After 3 weeks had passed, I went to teh VPO and kinda demanded she talk to me and this is what she said. "Well, honestly, I don't think you will ever be a driver again. What 'the boss' has told me is: THERE ARE CERTAIN PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD THAT BAD THINGS ARE ATTRACTED TO. NOT THAT THEY CAUSE BAD THINGS BUT THAT BAD THINGS JUST FIND THEM. HE HONESTLY, REALLY, BELIEVES THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THESE PEOPLE. THEREFORE IT IS TRAUMATIC FOR THE CLIENTS IF THESE BAD THINGS FIND YOU WHEN YOU ARE DRIVING. SO, NO, I DO NOT BELEIVE THAT HE WILL EVER LET YOU BE A DRIVER AGAIN. In my most sincerist form I asked if she was kidding. She was not. So, basically, again I have been accused of having a BAD AURA.
I have now gone back to my beginning position of doing residential care. I do not enjoy it and I do not like it. I am good at it. But it is NOT what I want to do. After 4 years, I have climed the ladder (almost to the top) and then have come all the way back down. I do like my schedule (which I set for myself). I work 3 days a week, doing 16 hour shifts. So, I get 8 hours overtime every week and I don't go in on my days off; I don't try to help the company; I just do my time and go home. Pretty sad, considering how dedicated I was and how much I loved some of the positions I had. Hmmmmm.......Sorry it was so long. Can you imagine if I had written it when it first happend?!?!?!?!
Friday, February 24, 2012
Home Improvements
We spend last weekend IMPROVING our house. I enjoyed it so MUCH!!!!! I am really on a curtain kick right now. A couple of weeks ago, the mini blinds in our dinning room got broken. We will eventually replace them but for now I ran to the dollar store (SOMETIMES I really love that store) and purchased a really cute set of green (well, kinda sage) colored curtains for like about $5. I hung them IMMEDIATELY. I also purchased a curtain set for the bedroom (CHOCOLATE colored - which I guess if going to be the new base color my the bedroom since that's what color of curtains I found). *side note- I am currently and very slowly redoing the decor in the entire house - maybe my color scheme will be based around what color curtains I buy - ha ha* I hung those the very next day. I am still looking for curtains for the bathroom that I like. Haven't really found any I like. I have 2 shower curtains that we switch out. One is green (more for summer time) and the other one is Chocolate.
Another purchase we made was a big cabinet thing. It went in the dinning room to hold things like cup towels, dish rags, the crockpot, and HUGE drink dispenser I also bought this weekend.
Oh my gosh speaking of the drink dispenser - It is a 3.5 gallon dispenser with one of those nozzel things you pull or push to get your drink. It has an ice holder inside of it so that it stays cool but your drink doesn't get watered down. It is SO cute. I made pink lemonade and cut up fresh lemon slices and put them in there - and because it is clear you can really see the lemons! It was precious! I forgot to take a picture. Sorry.
Ok, the last purchase (BUT DEFINETLY THE MOST EXCITING ONE) was a ceiling light for the living room. Please note at this point in the blog that I do not have capabilities to hang a ceiling light in my house. We have been using floor lamps because there is not electricity in the ceiling. But I knew this when I purchased the light. So, guess what WE did....we bought a swag cord and chain that plugs into the wall outlet. We then wired the ligt to the cord and HUNG it on the ceiling and then plugged it into the wall. IT WAS AWESOME. Neither Amber not myself have any electrical sense or knowledge or anything - which made this totally fun and comical - but we did it!!!!!! We were so happy and it looks GREAT!
So, maybe I will take pictures so you can see our handy work. Ha Ha!
Another purchase we made was a big cabinet thing. It went in the dinning room to hold things like cup towels, dish rags, the crockpot, and HUGE drink dispenser I also bought this weekend.
Oh my gosh speaking of the drink dispenser - It is a 3.5 gallon dispenser with one of those nozzel things you pull or push to get your drink. It has an ice holder inside of it so that it stays cool but your drink doesn't get watered down. It is SO cute. I made pink lemonade and cut up fresh lemon slices and put them in there - and because it is clear you can really see the lemons! It was precious! I forgot to take a picture. Sorry.
Ok, the last purchase (BUT DEFINETLY THE MOST EXCITING ONE) was a ceiling light for the living room. Please note at this point in the blog that I do not have capabilities to hang a ceiling light in my house. We have been using floor lamps because there is not electricity in the ceiling. But I knew this when I purchased the light. So, guess what WE did....we bought a swag cord and chain that plugs into the wall outlet. We then wired the ligt to the cord and HUNG it on the ceiling and then plugged it into the wall. IT WAS AWESOME. Neither Amber not myself have any electrical sense or knowledge or anything - which made this totally fun and comical - but we did it!!!!!! We were so happy and it looks GREAT!
So, maybe I will take pictures so you can see our handy work. Ha Ha!
Sunday, February 5, 2012
comments
ok...I changed some settings (per my sister's blog) and now it should be easier to leave comments for me.
If you do not have a google account just use the anonymous selection and then it should be fine. Just put your name in the comment so I know it is you. Thanks. Look forward to hearing from you!
If you do not have a google account just use the anonymous selection and then it should be fine. Just put your name in the comment so I know it is you. Thanks. Look forward to hearing from you!
Weekend Re-Cap
Well, the last couple of weekends I have been wanting to do nothing but stay at home. This weekend I have not accomplished that at all! I did have a great weekend though.
On Friday - I got some bills paid (YUCK!) I hate giving away my money! But then I picked up Brenn and we went to Wal-Mart. There I developed over 100 pictures off of various memory cards for my new project (more on that in a minute). Then we had dinner at Chili's. We don't eat at Chili's very often - by that I mean maybe once a year! Anyway, food was good. Desert was AWESOME and the company of my son was SO MUCH FUN! We talked and joked and laughed the entire time. No pulling teeth for conversation - It was CRAZY GOOD!
Very sadly after that I took Brenn home and then went home and watched a hilarious movie. To bad I didn't get to see the end of it. It was a rental and the end was so scratched that we couldn't watch it. (That has happened with the last 3 movies I have rented - huh!) Then it was bed time.
Saturday - I got to watch Zeta and Nakomus's first basketball game. 5 and 6 year olds are so much fun to watch playing basketball! After that I ran a few errands and then met my mom and Mimi for lunch at Red Lobster. (I have been craving Red Lobster for months now)! Lunch was very good and with good company.
Then it was to Hobby Lobby I went. And yes, I took pictures of merchandise in the store that I would like to start a new project with. But then I also purchases some random pack of scrapbooking paper for my current project (remember the pictures)..........YES! I have decided that while I am working graveyards I can help pass the time. Instead of snacking and watching late night tv - I am going to work on my scrapbooking. I put 3 pages together last week - so fun!
I then spent the entire rest of my day getting BEAT in MARBLES by SCOTTY!!!! Let me tell you, Scotty has the luck of being able to call numbers from where ever NUMBER LAND is and bringing them to the table just in time. (My sister can testify to this I am sure). He won like 10 stinkin games! Not like slaughtering my mom and I - but like everyone only had 1 marble left. Every trying to get home while stopping thier opponent...like a true fight to the finish......and EVERY TIME - Scotty would call the exact number he needed and ROLL IT! UGH! My mom won like 1 game. So, yes, dinner and about 11 games of marbles UGH! But I do have to say that I had so much fun. It was really a great time! Thanks Scotty and Mom for entertaining me. I will declair a rematch at some point just so you know.
Today, I attended Zeta's 7th birthday party. And now, I am going home to watch some Grey's Anatomy that I rented earlier in the week. Only 1 thing left to do - drive to Artesia to get Amber at like 10:30pm.
Anyway, hope everyone has a great week. Love you!
On Friday - I got some bills paid (YUCK!) I hate giving away my money! But then I picked up Brenn and we went to Wal-Mart. There I developed over 100 pictures off of various memory cards for my new project (more on that in a minute). Then we had dinner at Chili's. We don't eat at Chili's very often - by that I mean maybe once a year! Anyway, food was good. Desert was AWESOME and the company of my son was SO MUCH FUN! We talked and joked and laughed the entire time. No pulling teeth for conversation - It was CRAZY GOOD!
Very sadly after that I took Brenn home and then went home and watched a hilarious movie. To bad I didn't get to see the end of it. It was a rental and the end was so scratched that we couldn't watch it. (That has happened with the last 3 movies I have rented - huh!) Then it was bed time.
Saturday - I got to watch Zeta and Nakomus's first basketball game. 5 and 6 year olds are so much fun to watch playing basketball! After that I ran a few errands and then met my mom and Mimi for lunch at Red Lobster. (I have been craving Red Lobster for months now)! Lunch was very good and with good company.
Then it was to Hobby Lobby I went. And yes, I took pictures of merchandise in the store that I would like to start a new project with. But then I also purchases some random pack of scrapbooking paper for my current project (remember the pictures)..........YES! I have decided that while I am working graveyards I can help pass the time. Instead of snacking and watching late night tv - I am going to work on my scrapbooking. I put 3 pages together last week - so fun!
I then spent the entire rest of my day getting BEAT in MARBLES by SCOTTY!!!! Let me tell you, Scotty has the luck of being able to call numbers from where ever NUMBER LAND is and bringing them to the table just in time. (My sister can testify to this I am sure). He won like 10 stinkin games! Not like slaughtering my mom and I - but like everyone only had 1 marble left. Every trying to get home while stopping thier opponent...like a true fight to the finish......and EVERY TIME - Scotty would call the exact number he needed and ROLL IT! UGH! My mom won like 1 game. So, yes, dinner and about 11 games of marbles UGH! But I do have to say that I had so much fun. It was really a great time! Thanks Scotty and Mom for entertaining me. I will declair a rematch at some point just so you know.
Today, I attended Zeta's 7th birthday party. And now, I am going home to watch some Grey's Anatomy that I rented earlier in the week. Only 1 thing left to do - drive to Artesia to get Amber at like 10:30pm.
Anyway, hope everyone has a great week. Love you!
From my phone - YEAH RIGHT
Most of you saw where I tried to post but it was blank. Well, here is what happened...I tried to post from my phone. *Please know that my phone is in NO WAY a smart phone, an I phone, or an android phone.* I can do a few things like access the internet, check my email, do facebook, and a few other things......but I guess posting to my blog is not one of them. So, below is a copy of the attempted post.
So, I did try the triple chocolate cake in the crockpot. The sides turned out CRISPY (like a cookie) and the inside was really moist. It tasted very good (once you broke it open - ha ha). Then came the lasagna. It was delicious! Served it with garlic toast and a salad! Yummm. I love this crockpot! Sunday morning favorites include a big mug of coffee and the Sunday paper. My morning has had neither. I did take time out to read a little yesterday. That is also what I plan on doing when I am done here. I am really proud of myself...Earlier this month I commited myself to write one letterr a month to a different family member. Yesterday I sat down and wrote a letter to my Aunt Kathy. So, 1 down and 11 to go! Everyone have a great week ...AND CARLA...YOU BETTER BE EXCERSIZING MY LITTLE NEPHEW! N
So, I did try the triple chocolate cake in the crockpot. The sides turned out CRISPY (like a cookie) and the inside was really moist. It tasted very good (once you broke it open - ha ha). Then came the lasagna. It was delicious! Served it with garlic toast and a salad! Yummm. I love this crockpot! Sunday morning favorites include a big mug of coffee and the Sunday paper. My morning has had neither. I did take time out to read a little yesterday. That is also what I plan on doing when I am done here. I am really proud of myself...Earlier this month I commited myself to write one letterr a month to a different family member. Yesterday I sat down and wrote a letter to my Aunt Kathy. So, 1 down and 11 to go! Everyone have a great week ...AND CARLA...YOU BETTER BE EXCERSIZING MY LITTLE NEPHEW! N
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