Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Christmas Magic

I think that is my word for the season. I really contemplated NOT putting up a Christmas tree this year. I have been thinking about it since the day after Thanksgiving. Now that Brennen doesn't celebrate Christmas it is a little different. I really try hard not to let this bother me at the holidays (every holiday). But, honestly it does. I want to celebrate WITH him. But anyways, back to the current post (before this goes south). So, Brennen would prefer not to have a tree; Amber doesn't care either way; and I am busy and not really around to enjoy it alot. So, to put a tree up or not: that is the question.
I started looking around the living room to see where I would even put it at. I have no corners in the living room. Every corner of the room is a door way. Last year I covered one doorway with a curtain and put the tree in front of it. But since this time last year we gained bigger furniture. So the furniture takes up all of the wall space. So, that was problem number one. Mom and Scotty suggested getting a small tree and putting it on a coffee table. - If I am going to go to the trouble of putting up a tree - it is going to be the big shabang! So, I guess I am not putting up a tree I decided. But I couldn't stop contemplating it.
Then a few weekends ago I talked to my Mamaw on the phone! What a blessing that conversation was. She asked - are you the kind of person that is ok without having a tree. I initially said yes - but then continued talking about how I love to spend hours laying in front of the tree without any other lights on and just staring at it. How magical it feels. How peaceful. How beautiful. Mamaw suggested to me to put potpourri and lights in mason jars and use them like mini trees. That way I could have one in every room. This was a good suggestion but for the rest of the conversation I just kept thinking about how I love to fall asleep looking at the Christmas tree. About how I love looking at every ornament on there and thinking about when I got it and why. There is something about it that just warms me from the inside out.
After getting off of the phone with her I headed to town to run some errands. I was in such a wonderful mood. I let some man go ahead of me in the checkout line just because he looked like he was in a hurry. A little while later that day I went to Mom and Scotty's house. I could not believe what I had found out: Scotty put Christmas lights on the outside of their house. I was baffled. I helped my mom decorate and put up her Christmas tree. It was so beautiful. I was so happy that she decided to put up her big tree. All week I had kept telling her that it was a personal preference and that it didn't matter if she wanted to put up the big one or the little one. But the magic that had been inside of me since talking to my grandmother just smiled through when I saw that Scotty had gotten the big tree out of storage for her. Besides the tree, she even decided to put out a Christmas village that she hadn't put out in years.
I couldn't believe what happened next. While we were decorating guess what happened. IT SNOWED!!!! I decided then that I would be putting up a CHRISTMAS TREE. I think I had known it all along - but I lacked inspiration. Let me tell you - on this one day I received it. THE MAGIC OF THIS SEASON WAS BEAMING OUT OF ME!!!!!

Saturday, October 27, 2012

The Mother of a Teenager

I had a glimpse over the last year of a few lonely times. Times when my son would leave me sitting at a table in a restaurant to go play arcade games; and times when I would walk through the store alone because he wanted to look at video games FOREVER; and times when I would sit at my mom's house while he went down the street to hang out with his friends...

But I now know that these were JUST GLIMPSES. At the age of 13, Brennen has begun his social networking. He always wants to hang out with his friends. I am reminded of a time in my past very similar to this. Ok - pretty much exactly like this. So, I am patient and grant permission for him to go and wait for him to return. This week, he has started to ask permission to GO PLACES with his friends. Well, it started about a month ago. After school one day he asked me if he could go hang out at the mall. I was like - "The MALL? We never go to the MALL!" Just so happens I had a gift certificate to Bath and Body Works from my birthday (THANKS KAREN!). So, we went to the mall. Turns out, Brenn was meeting up with some friends after school there. So, him and 2 friends (girls) walked around the mall while I shopped. By walking around the mall I mean - walking in a circle from the south end to the north end; never going into any stores; just walking in a circle over and over. There is not much to look at in the Roswell Mall! But HOW BORING I thought to myself. I realized that I am glad there is not a lot to look at there - this means I can step out into the main isle and almost see all the way to the other end. I don't think Brennen has realized this yet but I have just been informed that he knows this. Anyway, After I shopped, I spent some time with a $5 pizza in the food court watching this ritual of circling the mall.

Then on Thursday Brennen told me that he had been asked to meet up with a different friend (his GIRLFRIEND) at the mall about 5:00pm on Friday. He was asking if he could go. So, on Friday afternoon, again, we went to the Mall. THE MALL????? UGH!!!!! Anyway, I am happy to see him hanging out with friends. He tells me I can just leave him there - but I am not as confident as he is. I notice none of his friend's parents are there - so, I sit alone in the food court. YEAH! Oh how I am missing my best friend. Karen would sit in the mall for hours with me - Chaperoning these little outings - Ha ha! After meeting the 2 kids Brennen was hanging out with, I decided they seemed like good kids and I threatened them a little about getting in trouble and then left them unattended in the mall. I spent some time watching DUCK DYNASTY with Scotty and my mom - which is a whole other post. After a little bit I went back to collect my child - I should correct that - MY TEENAGER! How different this is.

Anyway, it was these two events that made me realize it is LONELY being the Mother of a TEENAGER! I need to make some friends that want to hang out at the mall with me! Any volunteers?

Friday, October 19, 2012

Crafting

Something about this time of year just makes me wanna be really crafty and make lots of different things.

A few weeks ago, I accompanied my mom to Dollar Tree to purchase some cards. As we walked in I saw some very pretty fall flower bundles. I stopped and looked at them for a minute but then proceeded to the cards section. After picking out a few cards, I went in search of a fall tablecloth. I found the prettiest Butterfly instead. I knew as soon as I saw it that I had to make something with it. So, I gathered a wreath, some fall leaves, the BUTTERFLY, and a flower bundle. Because we were at Dollar Tree this wreath cost me $4.00 plus tax. When we returned to my mom's she headed to the shower and asked what I was going to do. "MAKE A WREATH OF COURSE". After about 5 or so minutes I had a new fall wreath.


During the same trip to the Dollar Tree I found some paper ornaments that would work perfectly on this tree thing I bought at a rummage sale in Temple back in April. So, this weekend I fixed it up for the season. Here is how it turned out:
Because it sits in my dinning room I bought pumpkin pie scented candles to go at the end of each "branch". It looks awesome.

After I was done crafting for the day Brennen and I sat down and battled it out in a game of RISK!



Friday, October 12, 2012

Android App

Just put the blogger app on my phone. Now just trying to see if it works.
These r flowers I received the other day. Aren't they pretty? Hope everyone has a great day.


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Our weekends as of late

Brennen and I have had some very busy weekends lately. So, two weeks ago we decided to do nothing. We stayed home and vegged out. Brennen and I both were relieved not to have to go anywhere or do anything. So guess what we did: We watched some movies.I convinced Brennen to watch some movies that he had never seen before. One of these included Forrest Gump.
We cooked. We made several breakfasts. Also, dinner each night. I really do love to cook. I really enjoy it even more when my family eats what I cook and enjoys it themselves. Brennen ate very well. He always asks me to make spaghetti for him. So, we went to the store and got all of the stuff. Just as I start making it Brennen tells me that he had spaghetti 2 other nights this week. Ugh! Ha Ha. We ate spaghetti anyway and it was delicious!
We pulled some weeds. Actually, pulling is an understatement. We chopped, broke, tugged, hacked, and pulled some weeds. I got an education about where tumbleweeds come from. I know this is gonna sound stupid but did You know that tumbleweeds actually start out green? I did not. Anyway, I have 3 huge tumbleweed PLANTS in my yard.
We both read. I actually read more than Brennen, but he did take some time and did some drawing. Brennen has always liked to draw but doesn't do it a whole lot anymore. I think maybe that might some of Nana. I got him his first drawing pad at about 3 years old. Anyway, he worked on some of his stuff. Believe it or not, our weekend only included 1 nap. This is unusual. I usually take a few naps - but I was having so much fun and enjoying my time with Brenn so much that my urge to sleep was not really present.
We played video games. There are only a few types of video games that I like. Brennen owns a PS2 and is saving his money for an XBOX 360. We as a family own another PS2; Gamecube; and original Nintendo. I don't play very often but I do have my own set of games. I love all of the musical video games - especially guitar hero. I have the METALLICA GUITAR HEREO amongst about 4 or 5 others. Let me tell you, I really ROCK at that game. Brennen and I played it. We both played guitars for a bit; then he sang and I played the guitar. My drums for the game are broke because I played them way to hard - but I really miss them - they are my favorite!
I also like Mario Brothers. For the Gambia I was recently obtained MARIO KART - it is a racing game. That is so much fun - of course several hours were spent on this game along with MARIO SMASH BROS GREAT MILI - it is like the Mario version of Mortal Kombat. It is really fun seeing what special moves each character has. Brennen gets a little sad because I don't enjoy the same games he does - like Call of Duty; Star Wars; Soldier games - I do play LEGO games with him sometimes - but I like that he likes the ones I do. Anyway, we had a really great time JUST VEGGIN' OUT!

Sunday, October 7, 2012

The Politics of Work

There are a lot of changes happening in all areas of the DD field. (DD meaning - developmental disability). I am going to explain this (although I don't know why) in a very non technical way. It is definitely not all of the details - not even a lot of the details - just the details pertaining directly to me mixed up a bit with my own observations and opinions. If you are reading this and want just the cold hard facts and politics about it - you will have to do your research elsewhere. Sorry. Just trying to explain to my family and friends what kind of changes my work is going through and a little bit of background on what I do.

So, I am now at my 3rd facility/organization who support people with these developmental disabilities. These are disabilities that usually occur before 3 years old. These disabilities are genetic and didn't happen from an accident. Anyway, I have been doing this since 2004. When I first started, I was taught this basic principle: WE SHOULD BE WORKING OURSELVES OUT OF A JOB!

This statement means that we are teachers. I am responsible for support and teaching people how to do things that they couldn't do otherwise. I am responsible for teaching people to be independent and to make sure they have everything they need to do things on their own. I take this very seriously. Some of the people I work with may never be able to do things on their own. Some of them I support so that they can learn to eat independently. Some of them may just need verbal help to remember the steps to take when bathing. Others, need verbal support and encouragement when it comes to controlling their anger or reactions to other people. And then I also support some people who need total care but are learning to walk or maybe just to entertain themselves with constant supervision. Whatever their need, I support them and try my hardest to find ways for them to learn.

There are some people who work in this field that have the same goal and objective as I do. Unfortunately there are a lot of people who work in this field who make choices for the people w/ disabilities (usually in the staff's best interest and not the client's). These people often do things for the clients instead of teaching the clients to do for themselves. It is alot easier to just do it for them and it takes a lot less patience. It also comes with a lot less resistance from the clients and a lot less overall work.

(bottomline) The DD Waiver is: an amount of money that the government pays to organizations on behalf of each client to provide staff and support services for them. The way they know what to pay the organization for is that staff must document all of the services that are being given. Here is where a lot of the problem comes from: Staff #1 may document: "Jill" took a bath and ate breakfast. Staff #2 may document: "Jill" was verbally prompted by staff that it was time for her bath. Jill required verbal reminders from staff about the things she would need to complete this task. Jill gathered the equipment and was physically assisted with setting the water to the temperature of her choosing. Jill undressed and got into the tub without assistance. Jill was then verbally prompted to wash her hair. Jill needed physical assistance with rinsing her hair free of the shampoo.....etc.... See the difference. #1 looks like Jill did it all by herself; #2 shows the support she actually needed. 9 out of 10 staff document like #1. So, the government (despite many warnings to the organizations) has said, well, we are paying you for supporting these people when all of the documentation says that they can do it by themselves.

Anyway, a year or so ago, the government has (for whatever reason) cut the amount of money that they are going to pay organizations to care for our clients. When these cuts take place the organizations will not be able to provide all of the services that they do now including the staff to client ratios amongst other things. Some of the clients are receiving one staff to one client services - this may decrease to three clients to one staff. When the organizations started fighting these cuts, the government decided to test each client individually to see what kind of services they actually need. The organizations initially thought - yeah! that will work. Here lies the problem:

The organizations are so USED to advocating for the clients. Showing the client's strengths and accomplishments instead of their disabilities and things that are difficult for them. So, right off the bat they began saying all of the things that the client's could do - emphasizing on the positives. They government took these results and again said, "oh, they don't need all of the help that you say". After the results come out there were a lot of clients who could never realistically live on their own - that they government has cut all staff for except 3 hours a day. With this in mind - many of our clients don't have families who can care for them - if they did, they wouldn't need us. Anyway, in a continuous fight, the organizations have been able to push back the cuts till January. They were supposed to happen in July. We have also gotten the government to retest some of the clients now that they know how to take the test.

So, sorry for the very dry work talk. But that is just a little bit of the insight into my career and the work that I do. Hope you guys have a great week. My post hopefully will be a little more light hearted next time.

Playing Catch UP

It occurred to me that I haven't written a blog since my birthday. So, let's play a little catch up!

Birthday: My birthday was great. I got to spend it with my Mom, Mamaw, Scotty, and Brennen. At 12:02am I received a gift (from Amber). It was a stereo. I have not had a stereo in a long time. When I want to hear music at home I use the computer, or DVD player. Occasionally we listen to vinyl records on the record player. So, she got me a stereo with a five disc changer, am/fm stereo, and an AUX cable where I can hook up my MP3 player. Wow! Also, I received a media stand to hold my guitar game controllers. (In case you don't know - I am a HUGE fan a musical video games! More on that a little later.)

My mother made me a delicious dessert - double chocolate brownies (her and Scotty's "secret recipe" topped with ice cream and chocolate syrup!

It was scrumptious. I also received many cards, calls, and facebook wishes. I also received some "green gifts". I bought a purse with one of them. I am saving the other for either shoes or clothes or a new coat this year or maybe some boots. (See why I have to save it - I can't decide). I also received a gift certificate to Bath & Body Works. I don't ever go to the mall. But one Friday Brennen and I went. We walked around. He didn't want to be seen in the "girly store" so he walked around while I shopped. I ended up purchasing 3 small lotions - all new scents and a candle. Perfect things for me! The scents were called: Dark Kiss, Be Enchanted, and Secret Wonderland. YUM! Anyway, My birthday was great. I ended up celebrating all weekend long.

Work: Due to some changes on the legislature level we are having to make changes within the organization. Actually, all organizations dealing with the DEVELOPMENTAL DISABILITY WAIVER are having to make changes. I will blog about it in more detail for those of you that are curious. Anyway, one of the changes at work has moved me to a different house. I was working with 3 men on 3 different levels with 3 different kinds of care needed. Now, work with 1 woman. I went from working days to working graveyards. So, I am really trying to adjust and my body had kinda been in shock all week.

Health: Like I said, my body has kinda been in shock. This shock causes me to have more headaches than normal. I had 2 doctor visits in the last week - 1 for my headaches and another for routine stuff you don't want to hear about. I got to get some more teeth pulled on the 18th of this month. I found out that I have only gained 4 pounds this whole year. Although I would have rather lost 4 pounds, that is saying alot considering all of the changes I have been through already this year. I thought with changing jobs and stuff I would have gained more - luckily I didn't.

Pets and Plants: Houston is growing like crazy. He isn't a big dog by any means but he is definitely a lot bigger than he was when I got him at the end of the summer.

Houston goes for his last set of puppy shots on Monday. At this time he will also receive his rabies shots and then will be neutered I think in like 2 weeks. But all is good. He has been acting like a butt lately but I think it is a phase. He has began shedding like crazy. I hate having dog hair on me. I am currently looking for something to help with this little problem.

As you seen in my earlier blog about Becky - I almost killed my plant. She has had for a month. She reported to me that I rotted the root. She says this happens from over watering. I don't know how that happened since I never water that plant. But I guess when I did water I tried to make up for the lack of water - so maybe I dehydrated it and then flooded it, dehydrated it then flooded it, repeatedly. I don't know. Anyway, I picked it up yesterday - she nursed back 3 little leaves and gave me directions - she has a lot of faith that if I follow these directions and find it a happy place in my home it will flourish.
She has a lot more faith than I do - But I am TRYING!

So, that is just a few short notes on a few things. More in a bit.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Early Birthday Suprise

I had a great day on Friday. Amber and Gladys asked to take me to lunch for my birthday since I would be busy most of the weekend (and because Amber had to work doubles all weekend). Of course I did not turn this offer down.

I woke early and attended a dumb meetings at work. It never ceases to amaze me the amount of meeting we have to overly explain the very obvious and common sense parts of our job. UGH!! But anyway I was in a really good mood. I had a cute shirt on and brand new earrings (which I had bought on clearance for $2.00). So, I survived the meeting in a good mood.




I then went and got Amber and Gladys. Amber had told me that she had a meeting to attend in Artesia for work this morning too. So, off to Artesia the 3 of us went. When we got there she said she needed to run to FENN'S first. We usually pay our electric bill there (and she had just got paid) so I of course didn't think anything about it. Well, we walk straight over to the bakery and I just knew what was ahead! She had ordered me a CUTE PURPLE AND GREEN BUTTERFLY CAKE! (So, for those of you who don't know - the butterfly is kinda like my symbol and of course purple and green and my favorite colors!)


We then went to lunch at Henry's BarBQ. The food was good and it was something differnt that we don't eat alot. After lunch we stopped at McDonald's and got 3 cups of icecream and then we went to the park. We sat at a picnic table and had cake and icecream! It was so much fun!

After taking Amber to work I headed back to Roswell to pick up Brennen and then to see a very special lady who came a long way to visit. Guess who!?!?!?

My friend Becky

When I worked at the Door Of Opportunity I met several wonderful people. One who is named Rebekah Ramos (Becky).

Since neither of us still work there (thank goodness) we really don't get to see each other. I enjoy Becky's company so much! We have decided to get together once a month and do a coffee date (although she doesn't drink coffee). But usually the 1st Saturday of the month we get together about 6:30 or 7:00am and just visit.

This is convienant for me because I take Amber to work at 6:30am and since Becky lives in Artesia I can just go straight there. It works. I think she gets up early these mornings but always seems delighted to see me.

Becky always makes something good to eat - the first time she made cinnamon rolls, and last week we had banana nut bread. I drink coffee and she drinks whatever. We usually sit and visit for about and hour and a half or 2 hours. I love this time with her. I am getting to know her more than just as a co-worker.



We show off pictures of our families and learn new things about each other. Sometimes we cry and we always have a laughing fit or two.

Becky - I love spending this time with you! It makes me wish my best friend lived here too. I know you guys would get along so well - but I am greatful (very greatful) that I have made a friend here that I just trully enjoy!

Thank you Becky for your friendship....and especially for your goodies. Becky makes the best homemade jelly - even my mom likes it. Also, she is a certified (by us) ICU plant nurse! Ha Ha. I recieved "Alma" my plant 3 years ago after my grandfather (Papaw) went to be with the Lord. I did very well caring for it the 1st year. The plant just thrived. But since we moved (almost 3 years ago) my plant just has not been happy. I have nursed it and nursed it. Sometimes it gets a little better but then always ends up looking like this.

So, Becky has very nicely taken Alma to nurse back to health! Good luck! I have total confidence in her!

Anyway, gotta rest before returning to work. Have a great day!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Definetly Domesticated

I never really have (until recently) considered myself "domestic". But I find that as I get older I become a little less "wild" each year. This was definetly proven to me the other day. I found a grocery ad on the counter at work. I picked it up and saw that steaks were on sale. Not usually a big deal. I read the rest of the ad and found that chicken was on sale as well. Hmmm...this sorta sparked my interest.
*side note: I do not look for sales, I do not do coupons (unless they are for free Route 44 drinks from Sonic), and I for sure don't think about grocery shopping more than about 10 seconds*
I finish looking at the ad (because I was waiting and had nothing better to do while I did so) and left it on the counter. For the rest of the night I kept thinking about steak. I debated and debated about if I should buy it; if I had the money to buy it; if it was worth giving up my Sonic sodies for the rest of the week; you know, lots of stuff. It was really wierd - but just earlier today Amber and I were talking about how good a steak would have been for lunch. Finally, I leave work and go home. As I ate leftover macaroni and cheese I again thought about buying some steak.

I returned to work the next morning to find those dang ads still on the counter. So, I take a closer look. I see: Petite Sirloin Steaks BUY 1 GET 2 FREE; Whole Chickens or Family Pack of Leg Quarters $.77 A POUND. I finished my short but very busy 3 hour shift and as I was walking out the door my body becomes uncontrollable. My hand just jumps out to the side of me and my arm follows suit. Before I could ask my hand "what are you doing" in my head of course, it just grabs the ad and my feet just start moving in a hurried pace towards the door. I couldn't help but ask myself, "what in the heck are you doing". Once outside, I get into the car and then look at this stinkin ad again! It dawns on me that I have just stolen a GROCERY AD!!!!!!! I am beside myself. I examine the ad to see where it is from. I had not even paid attention to see what store would have the power to temporarily possess my body in such a manner.

I giggle to myself and say, "Only you, Jessica, would steal a grocery ad and not even know where it was from". Then I correct myself, "Only YOU would steal a grocery ad PERIOD!" (hence the name of the blog). For a very brief Nano second I got the feeling of what it would be like on GREY THURSDAY (like that?????) or BLACK FRIDAY if I were like these crazed idiots you see on tv. WATCH OUT IF THEY EVER PUT GROCERIES ON THE BLACK FRIDAY SALE - HA HA HA.

Anyway, once I had calmed myself, I drove to Albertson's. I had to see what could make me so crazy. Once in the parking lot I thought to myself - wow they aren't even busy. I found a parking spot right in the front. I went inside to the meat department and there were 2 older couples and an older lady in the department. None of them were even looking at the meat that was on sale. In fact one of the couples was fighting over bacon which I thought was totally cute. I went to the big sale signs (there was lots of different meat on sale). I started examining the steaks first (of course).

I found them. But the cheapest packages they had were $14.75 and up. I live on a very tight grocery budget mind you. I usually don't buy any meat that costs more than $8.50 a pack. So, I walk away. I find the chicken. What a deal! I got a family pack of leg quarters and do you know that the whole package only cost $4.50. Now that's what I am talking about!!!! The steaks kept whispering my name. They sure did look good; good cuts; good color; good brand. I walked past them to the roasts. The steaks call my name. I pretend to ignore them. Even though the roasts were buy 1 get 1 free - they were still like $23 each. Way out of my price range. Again, I hear my name. I have to answer.

"OK OK!" I shout in my head to those dang steaks. I start doing the math. If I buy 1 and get 2 free......After being baffelled by the math, I found three packages around the same price. The ones I picked were all around $16.75. The most expensive one was $16.81-which of course is the one they will charge me for. I don't know why they won't charge you for the least expensive one - YES I DO!! BUT IT SURE WOULD BY NICE IF THAT IS HOW THEY DID IT!

So, anyway, I walked out of Albertson's with 3 packages of beautiful talking steaks and a family size package of chicken leg quarters. The meat was right at a $60 value. Guess how much I paid!......well, I am waiting......ok, I will just tell you - $21.20!!!!!

I was totally proud of myself - incase you can't tell from this very animated and full of detail post!!! Here is a picture of one of the packs of steak and the chicken...I couldn't leave you empty handed while I go take the other steaks off of the grill - YUM!

Sunday, August 26, 2012

The end of the summer

This summer I kinda started me a list of things I wanted.

1. A JOB - Accomplished.

2. A better job - I got a call from the state on Friday and the job I was waiting to hear about was offered to some other person - blah! Oh well. I will keep looking.

3. A dog - I got Houston Dean. I am not really sure why. But he is mine and I love him. Do I regret it? The jury is still out.

4. To meet my new nephew JAXEN - YEA!!!!!! I got to meet him VERY BRIEFLY last weekend. But it is accomplished. I just adore him!

5. To give my siste a HUG! - I have been just itching to hug her. Just to tell her how very proud I am of her. I got to see what a GREAT mom she is. I got to HUG her. Who knew that one day I would miss her as much as I do! NOT ME!

6. To start and finish my dental work - that is a whole post by itself. It is started but defineatly not finished!

7. To spend some time with Nicholas, Joshua, and Karen - all though our time was short I did get to see hem a few days this summer - I love you guys! Hope you enjoy school this year.


So, starting a new job curbed several of my other plans - like seeing my grandmother and doing some light traveling - but it was a well needed change!

I did get to spend a lot of time with Brenn which I wouldn't change for the world - all though it was really funny listening to girls whisper about how cute he is and if they should ask him out.

Anyway, it has been a great summer. I am really hoping for a great fall!

13 Years!

Well, it happened! Brennen turned 13 this weekend. Oh my goodness! I don't even know what to say.

Brennen - you mean the world to me! I hope that you know that! I love you so so much!




These were just a few photos I had REALLY handy! My how you have grown. Who can believe that I have been a mom for 13 years? Not me! Anyway, just wanted to say I love you!

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Glad tomorrow is Thursday

Wow! I have had an eventful week.

On Monday I worked for 1 hour (at 6:00am). Then I left and went to my dentist appt in Artesia. The dentist stated that I was definately his challenge for the month. I went in because My teeth were KILLING me slowly! Anyway, he pulled the top back and the bottom back molars on the left side. The he reversed 2 root canals and then pulled those teeth. Well, PULL is not the right word. More like, tug, crumble, dig, pry, twist, shake, etc. All of these tactics were used. With in 30 minutes he had the 1st two teeth pulled. Then it took an hour and a half to pull the 2nd two. He ended up having to dig into the jawbone to get one out and then leave the tip of the other in there and hope the gum will just grow around it. The dentist was GREAT!!!!! I did not even cry - which I usually the entire visit starting with the 1st shot. That afternoon, I was in so much pain! Now, even as Wednesday comes to a close I am still in a lot of pain (nothing like on Monday but definately still some). The inside of my mouth is still all tore up and my lip is swollen and discolored. Please send me some healing thoughts and prayers. If the gum doesn't grow around that tip we will have to go back in and dig it out----so please keep me in your thoughts.

On Tuesday, I returned to work. (Probably too soon - but I need my paycheck - starting a new job I have no sick leave!) Anyway, On my "lunch break" I took Houston to the vet for the first time. He got a GREAT checkup. Everything is great and he got is 1st 3 shots. He wieghs 6 1/2 pounds. Then I went home for a nap before returning to work.

Today has also been more productive at work but still really painful. I know that some of you have asked about school - I can't find my tax return papers. I NEED them to fill out the financial aid paperwork. I don't think I can afford to go without it. I have gotten on the IRS website to just look up the info I need but can't find it. UGH! I was supposed to meet with the academic advisor but had to work late that day and had to cancel my meeting. I was going to meet with them this week as a walk in but have been feeling so bad so I haven't. So, I did get approved to attend but I need all of this other stuff to fall into place.

It is late and I have one more day of work tomorrow. I work a shift and a half so basically will be working for 13 hours. Hope my toothless mouth holds up. I better get some rest. Good night!

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Houston Dean



This is Houston Dean. He is my new puppy. I have had him about 3 weeks now. A girl at my work bought him for her kids in the beginning of the summer. But now that her kids are going back to school she said she didn't want to mess with him and was getting rid of him. She was having to hide him from her landlord which was a big mess; anyway. She couldn't find anyone to take him and was going to take him to the pound.

I have been wanting a dog for about a year. I don't know why. But I have. I wanted a big dog. But with loosing my job; finances not great; and a lot of other things going on I knew that I did NOT NEED a dog. Anyway, I kinda let it go. But then I heard she was taking him to the pound and my heart sank. I asked what his name was. After 2 months he still didn't have a name. So, low and behold.....the next morning I had a 2 month old puppy!

The good thing is that he is still a puppy and I can train him the way that works for us and not have to untrain bad habits.
The bad thing is that HE IS STILL A PUPPY!!!!!! I don't know ANYTHING about training dogs. The last dog I had BABY BOY who died over a year ago I got when he was already almost 2 years. I did a little training with him but not like this.

So, everyday I am learning and Houston is getting bigger and exploring more and getting in more "trouble". UGH! But he is a very good dog. He is very playful and loveable. He loves to play fetch with his toys. He loves to cuddle and nap beside us (but is not allowed in the bed - YUCK). We just have to work on the pissing and pooping in the house and chewing up everything he finds. Oh yeah and the running out of the yard away from you when you call him kinda stuff.

I am learning that I can not just go and do as I used to. I can not stay gone all day long. My Mom and Scotty have been so good. I love spending time with them on the weekends so they have allowed Houston to either stay in their backyard, in his tote, or in my arms while we visit and play games. He absolutely loves their backyard.

Anyway, Houston has his first vet appt on Tuesday to get his checkup and shots. So, just wanted to share that with you all. Hope you have a great day.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

Has it really been a month?

I knew it had been a long time since I had sat down and wrote a post. But really? A month? I guess I have just been kinda busy.

Work is going well. Same thing really. I only have one more training class which will be late in August. But I got to carry over 90% of my training from my last job so that helped out a lot. I have still been working while training so it really wasn't a big thing....but good to know that I am almost done. I like my job for what it is. But I am still on the lookout for something new and exciting.

Which brings me to tell you that I interviewed with the State of New Mexico for a postion as a clerk at the Health Resource Center (Health Office). I haven't heard anything yet but am waiting with positive vibes for a position.

I have really been enjoying Brennen over the last couple of weeks. We have really had some good quality time together this summer. Last week went and tried the new garlic bread pizza at Pizza Hut. It was okay for an appitizer - but not great! I think we are planning to the the new Batman movie today. We have been talking a lot about the beginning of school and kinda seeing what we need to do before then. Brennen is going to spend the next two weeks with his father for vacation. I miss not having him right before school starts!

Speaking of school, I have decided to go back to school this year. I have reapplied at ENMU-R. I have a meeting with some advisors on the 1st of August.

I have a confession! My sister and NEPHEW will be in Roswell on the 18th of August. I am not sure I can wait. I am bursting on the inside with excitement (and trust me sometimes on the outside too).

We have gained a puppy. I saved him from going to the pound when a lady at my work could no longer keep him. He is 2 months old. We have named him Houston Dean. It it definetly a lot of work house training him. But I am doing the best I can and with ALOT of help from Amber who is home while I am working. He is very cute. I will post a picture of him soon.

Gotta run. Busy week.

Sunday, July 8, 2012

Just to catch up

I have been having a good experience at work. I touched base with all of the other companies I was waiting to hear from last week. They all filled the positions with someone else. BLAH! Anyway, I also got the chance to turn a job down. I had recieved two positions from 2 different companies. They were both the positions with caregiving for the disabled. I thought I might work both of them for a while. You know get caught up on some stuff and save up some money. But with my schedule at Tobosa it was going to be very hard. So, I chose to stay there and very graciously turned down Esperanza. That felt nice.

I work a split shift though. I work from 6am-9am. Then I am off (except when I have training). I go back to work at 3pm and work till 10pm. So, I am kinda trying to adjust to this schedule. It is not as easy or comfortable as it appears to be. At first I was like, "woo-hoo! I can go to work then get off and get all the stuff done that I need to. Then I can go back and finish working. You know, like a long lunch." Let me tell you that is NOT the case. But slowly I am adjusting.

On the 4th of July I had to work; so Brennen and I had lunch. We went to Wal-Mart quickly and then had lunch. After lunch we stopped for snow cones. We laughed and laughed throughout the day. We had a really great time. He is really pretty funny when he puts his defenses down. It is pretty sad to me that he has so many defenses at such a young age. But he is getting better about putting the draw bridge down when it is just the 2 of us. That is very nice.

Brennen seems to be having a good summer. He has declared himself, "A CHICK MAGNET".

Let me tell you....PUBERTY has begun. I am holding strong for now. I am defineatly learning as we go. I have come to understand that little girls are EVIL. Ha ha. I have to keep this in mind as I am asked to examine armpits for new hair or a top lip for darkening hair. I really do think this is fun.

Hope everyone has a great week.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Away for a week

Since I have started working during the week, Brennen has really been helping out around the house. He has hung out, and helped move some things. But overall his days while I am at work can best be described (by him) as boring. So, since I have to work this week as well, Brennen will be spending the week in Midland with Karen, Joey, Nicholas, and Joshua. I am kinda happy that he won't be at home bored all week but am also sad that he won't be here when I do finally get home. This evening I already miss him and he has only been gone a few hours.

Our day started really early. Well, our night ended really late to start with. I sent Brenn to bed at 12:30am. He wanted to put a movie on. I let him, figuring he would fall asleep watching it. WRONG. I think he was a little excited about today because when I went to bed (at 2:00am) he was still AWAKE watching the movie. I very firmly told him to go to sleep. His reply was, "I am trying." He got a very quick and short response from me....."Turn it off and go to sleep". Within a matter of minutes he was out. But at 5:15am our day started. We left the house at 5:30am - I was very glad we packed last night and had everything sitting by the door. After dropping Amber off at work in Artesia, we headed to HOBBS. We stopped along the way, when my eyes started to droop. Brennen slept all the way to Artesia; then woke for 10 minutes and returned to sleep. Brennen continued to sleep and I took a nap. I woke after about half an hour and we continued our journey. Brennen remained asleep. Brennen slept until 9:00am when we met up with Karen.

We met up with Karen and the boys and had breakfast at Denny's. After breakfast a trip to Hasting's was in order. Everyone got a new book except for me. (The reason behind that is because I am the only one who doesn't read). Anyway, about 11:00am we parted. I guess Brennen is glad he slept our whole trip because he talked Karen's ear off all the way to Midland I think. So, I really enjoyed seeing Karen and the boys. Joshua is such a hoot and Nicholas - well, I love that guy!!!!!! Anyway, can't wait until Brennen gets back; but until then..........It is a work week for me! Hope you have a great MONDAY tomorrow.

Saturday, June 23, 2012

A Quick Update

I had a good week. I started work on Wednesday. I trained on Wednesday and Thursday. I will be off for the weekend and then back to it on Monday. I like the job so far. It was good that I already have a spot. They had hired me to be a floater only as needed. But I am very greatful that they have found a spot for me that has 40 hours a week. The shift is a Monday through Thursday split shift; meaning I will work from 6am - 9am and then go back from 3pm - 10pm. So, it has its perks and downfalls both. I am also VERY GREATFUL that it turned out to be Mon - Thurs so that I can still spend my weekends with B.

My sister has requested some updated pictures of Brennen. So here they are. Also, one of all of the kids. (They have spent the last 2 days with us).














Liah (4), Nakomus (6), Kili (5), Amber, Zeta (7), Brennen (12).

Since it is 2:07am I guess I will leave you for the night. Sweet dreams.

Monday, June 18, 2012

I start Tuesday

Well, I have good news. On Friday, very late in the afternoon a company called and wants me to start on Tuesday morning. This is not the offer I wanted but I am taking it. It is on an as needed basis, doing what I have been doing; caregiving. They said they don't have a position open but need fill ins. So, I go sign paperwork on Tuesday.

In the meantime I am waiting on several other prospects:

1.)I interviewed last Monday at a law firm to do secretarial work. The Office Manager really liked me and wants to set me up for a 2nd interview with the actual attorneys. But first she has to interview everyone for the first round. I was #8 that she had talked to out of 22. But I was told I would definitly be called back. I liked this lady a whole lot and we seem to have a lot of things work wise in common that we got to talk about. The office is very small - 2 attorneys, herself, and maybe me.

2.)I interviewed on Thursday with a "caregiver" business kinda like where I was working but they pay the families to take care of the clients instead of just random people. They also do lots more but along those lines. I interviewed for a Service Coordinator position. This would be making sure that everyone on the client's team is on the same page (including any medical stuff, case managers, therapists, guardians, family representatives, employer, etc) and that the files reflect that. I really like this company and really want this position. The interview was 50 minutes long. They seem to like me pretty well and I have a good background minus some training. But they also had several people to interview besides myself.

3.)I interviewed with a walk in medical clinic on Monday. That interview seemed to go pretty well. They really a need someone who is bi-lingual but depending on who applied we will have to see. But they told me not to expect a call till about Wed or Thurs of this week.


4.) I received a call this afternoon from another "caregiver" agency that wants to interview me on Tuesday morning. I will be calling them in the morning first thing and seeing if we can set some other time - because I will be starting with the company that actually hired me.

So, I guess I will start tomorrow and then see where these other things lead to. Please keep me in your thoughts as I hope to have some tough decisions to make pretty soon.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Happy Father's Day

Got to spend some time with Scotty and my Mom yesterday. Actually, a lot of time. My Mom, Brenn and I played a new board game I bought for $.50. CSI. It was like clue but a lot more in depth and took the amount of time of a short Monopoly game. It was fun. I want to play one day with my Mom and Mimi. I think that would be lots of fun.

Anyway, had dinner; Mom grilled chicken. It was very good. And then of course the rest of the time was spent PLAYING MARBLES! (Minus the nap I took while my Mom and Brenn played scrabble). There are some families that don't play games together. I am very greatful that my family is not one of them. I love this QUALITY time together.
**Carla I know you want to know who won - reluctantly I have to say: Mom 4; Me 2; and Scotty 1. I know if you ask him he will probably say that he would have won the next one but I had to leave! Ha Ha!**

We all got to talk to my sister on speaker phone. That was really cool. Her and her family are doing very well. I know they were planning on taking Jax to church on this Father's Day along with thier company, Nik's parents. How very special!

I had some time to remember and reflect on a very very special Father...


Here is a picture of him right after I was born...A proud new father!



And then, this picture is right after he became a grandfather.


I hope this Father's Day is a blessed one for all of the Father's in my life. Especially thinking about how very special this day is for a new father. So, Happy Father's Day!

The End and The Beginning

Last Month (May) I was called into the office at work. I was terminated with no warning, no questions, no answers....just terminated. I was told, "you were asleep on the job so we are terminating you". I was flabbergasted. I KNOW I WAS NOT ASLEEP AT WORK!!!! So, I asked them in a very rational and calm voice, "What do you mean? What are you talking about?" All they could say was "we have word that you were asleep on the job so we are terminating you". Of course, my natural response went something like, "WHAT! WHEN?" They then proceeded to say, "umm...Monday.? Tuesday? That doesn't matter. We are terminating you. Then refused for me to ask anymore questions just saying it was done. So, I (not so calmly) left the building.

4 freakin' years!!!!!!! 4 years and 2 months I have been working there...and for what? To be demeaned and insulted and then thrown away like a piece of garbage.

Before getting on with this story - I would just like you to take a minute and reflect (ok, a couple of seconds). Reflect on me. What you know about me. The person you know me to be. I know that I have done some really stupid things before. I will even say some very stupid, self sabotaging things. But I hope you know - 1. That I am not that person any more and 2. That never have I been this irresponsible at work. I WORK. I do what I do. I take pride in my job and EVERYTHING that I put into it. I am a good worker. I am good at what I do. Honestly, and I am not just saying this to pat my own back or whatever - Honestly, I am good at my job. I give 110%. I am one of the best workers this company has or has had in the 4 years I have been there. No kidding. They even moved me up to supervisor after I had only been there 2 or 3 months. I am dedicated and hard working. I give everything to my work. I hope you know this about me.

Hold on - this still upsets me and angers me so much that as I type my eyes are filling up with tears. At first I was really embarrassed to tell anyone I knew. I was ashamed and thought that people would look at me as a failure. I have really had to work through this because I say this with all of the HONESTY IN MY HEART - I DID NOTHING WRONG. I HAVE NOTHING TO BE ASHAMED OR EMBARRASSED OF, other than the fact that I gave so much of myself to what turned out to be such an undeserving company.

So, as the story goes on, I really was terminated just like that. I received a call a few days later stating there were 2 investigations open on my for abuse/neglect on my part towards the lady I was working with. So, not only did I get terminated, they also contacted the state department and accused me of abuse/neglect. THE NERVE of some people.

So, I am now out of a job, and am being investigated by two state agencies. I also, have had a 3rd investigation begun by the Unemployment Department on my behalf. So, I will let you know how they turn out.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Investigations

I am gonna kinda pick up where I left off (so if you are just tuning in - read the post before this one and you will be up to speed).

After a month of 3 investigations going on - here is what I know:

The Company had a picture of me that they said was taken on Monday the 14th, between 4:00pm and 9:00pm. In this picture my eyes were closed. (Maybe I blinked, maybe I was clocked out and waiting for my ride - which sometimes takes half an hour, or maybe the possibilities are numorous). But I know for a fact that is not what I was wearing on Monday. I have not worn this particular outfit since the beginning of April. The picture itself has no date or time stamp on it. Also, in my defense there were 2 other employees present at my job site during this time. One I was training. The other one I work with everyday. My shift is from 2:00pm till 6:30am. So, they were not even accusing me of falling asleep on the graveyard which I work by myself. -Now, if I were going to sleep at work don't you think it would be on the graveyard?

Anyway, as the investigations progressed, the company changed thier minds and said the picture was taken on Tuesday the 15th. Again, that is not what I was wearing this day either (I remember because it was raining both of these days and overcast). Also on this day there were 2 other staff besides myself present for the shift. During this time frame I am constantly up and moving. I have to bathe, cook, feed, change, give liquids (on a set routine), assist with medications, start tube feedings, brush teeth, put to bed, do chores, etc.....this is the busiest time of both shifts. I stay BUSY.

Anyway, appearently the investigators wanted the notes from the internal investigation done by the company. Guess what. They didn't do one. They didn't find out who took the picture, when they took it, why they had thier cell phone or camera out at work, etc. They did not talk to the other employees that were there with me. They did not look at my shift documentation to see what was going on during the shift. Nothing. They just terminated me.

So, here it is a month later. The unemployment department closed thier investigation with a letter to the company stating (and I quote):
"Jessica D. Dunn was dishcarged from your employ for sleeping, no evidence submitted. Misconduct in connection with the work has not been established"...
Basically, this letter says - HA! I know that is kinda childish but it felt really good to read it.

Now, I am just waiting for the other 2 investigations to close. I talked to one of the investigators a few days ago and basically she said that she is waiting on them to produce some paperwork/information that they don't have. Why don't they have it? Because I didn't do anything wrong. But she pretty much just told me to be patient and not to worry she was not referring me to the abuse/neglect registry.

So, the good news is that I have not been found guilty of having misconduct or abuse or neglect. Bad news - I still don't have a job. Sorta good news - the company has to pay me unemployment which is only half of what I was making. It is helping until I can find something else and believe me.....I HAVE BEEN HUNTING!

So Many Things.....

There are so many things I just want to rant and rave about on this blog. Too bad these things are still of a sensitive nature. It is not the time yet to do it.....so until then UGH! Please keep us in your prayers. New and Awesome things are waiting to happen (in HIS time - which usually doesn't coincide with my RIGHT NOW time). So, I am TRYING to be patient and TRYING to keep a positive attitude and outlook. Both of these are crucial to my sanity.

But until these things happen, we are staying a bit cooler. Thanks to Javier (the maintenance man for our rental house), we have a new A/C in the bedroom and the main one is working much better. Javier came the other day to install a second A/C on top of our house. The way the house is set up, our A/C only cools one side of the house (the side that our bedrooms are not on). Our house used to be a duplex. So, it is only designed to only cool half the house. There was a spot on the other side of the house for another A/C. But as things go (only to Jess - ha ha title shot) the roofers, roofed over it when the new roof was put on. As luck would have it, a window in the bedroom was halfway boarded up (where the last tenants had a window A/C). So, Javier diligently worked on installing one in the window instead. Of course this meant I had to rearrange the bedroom (YEA!- it was time). I had that ugly boarded up window covered with the dresser. So now, the bedroom is cool and rearranged! On the main A/C he cleaned it, changed the pads, oiled it, and replaced a belt. The house is definately cooler - and for that, I am very greatful!

Today I am working on filing - a much needed "to do" task.

I look forward to spending some time with my mom this weekend. We have both been kinda "hit and miss" for the past couple of weeks with our busy schedules. So, the other day we made plans to hangout on Saturday. Sometimes, you just need some "mom time".

Brennen is coming home tomorrow and will be staying home for 2 full weeks! I look forward to this time each summer and winter. I hate hate hate it when it is the opposite and he stays that long with his father. So, I am looking to see what fun things we are going to do. Probably throw some swimming days in there. I do want to take a day or two and go fishing. Ha, Ha. This is funny to me. We want to go but don't know how. I know I have fished before (thanks to my Dad and Papaw - they would probably turn over to hear me say I don't remember how! Anyway, I am gonna figure it out and we are gonna do it!....As soon as I figure out WHERE to go.

I guess I should start on this huge pile of filing! More later.

Jaxen Houston Davis

For everyone who does not read my sister's blog page:

My Nephew was born on 6/12/2012. He is so cute. Carla, Nik, and Jax are all doing very well. I couldn't be prouder. Unless........TWINS! Carla, next time shoot for twins! Just kidding.



He is so adorable. I can't wait to meet him in person. I just want to hug my sister's neck! Anyway, they are doing really well and will be headed home later today. Just wanted to share the good news.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Pretty Busy Week

I had a pretty busy week. I got a lot of stuff done that just needed to be done. After the holiday on Monday, the roofers showed up Tuedsay morning. They began tearing off the old roof and putting on the new one. Backup for a minute. Last month about the middle of May, it rained every day for like a week. Anyway, during that blessing, our roof began to leak in like 3 different places. The landlord had the insurance people come and assess it. We are getting a new roof. YEAH! So, the roofers worked from early morning until 7:00 or 8:00 every evening. By Saturday they were done. Our roof is complete on the outside. Now, this week, other guys will be here doing the inside where the damage was. So, even though I didn't do any of the actual work I feel accomplished about this.

I also had a guy come out and spray the house for bugs both inside and outside. We are experiencing a lot of HOUSE CENTIPEDES!!!! These are very scary to come across! ESPECIALLY IN THE NIGHT TIME OR THE DARK! Everything I have read says that they bite but aren't really poisonious. But then other things say they are. I don't know for sure...and I SURELY DON'T WANT TO FIND OUT!

Got my livingroom cleaned and painted (more in another post). All of the sheets got changed. The front porch is swept off and the weeds outside have been cut. The pantry is cleaned out! It becomes such a clutter spot. There is still so much to do! With my schedule I am gone for 3 days. I slept pretty much all day for 2 days. I then only have 2 days to take care of everything else. So, needless to say, there are a lot of things that get pushed to the side. I am actively making a list of the things around here that need attention and then tending to one or two of them a day. I feel so out of control when the house is a mess (or better put - cluttered). I guess in my "adult life" I have realized that I hate to clean but I hate it even more when things aren't clean! Now, to go sort some laundry.

House Remodeling

When we first moved into this house about 2 years ago I had all of these plans for it. Shortly after moving in Dorian and the girls moved in with us. The house then became more of a community living space. When Dorian and the girls moved out last month, I again had all of these ideas about what to do with the house. One thing I wanted to do was paint. I have been wanting to paint my living room for some time now. I have been arguing with myself over paint colors for about 6 weeks. It started with my bedroom actually. I decided that I wanted something different done with my bedroom (actually it started shortly after getting the new bed - of course). Well, it didn't take long to decide that I wanted my bedroom to be done in CHOCOLATE & BRIGHT PLUM. That was the easy part. Finding linens (mores specifically a comforter/bedspread) in these colors was a completely different story. So, after much searching I have narrowed it down to a chocolate comforter with the plum pillows. Also, a bright plum headboard that I will be making myself. Once I had all of this figured out I got a kick to redecorate the entire house. Please keep in mind that this is a pretty expensive process. I can do alot of it with inexpensive bargain pieces but when you have a lot of pieces to do it totals pretty expensive. So, a little bit at a time and a lot of saving will be required of this project. But I am going to take one piece at a time as I can. I did my first step active (besides planning) step this weekend:

This brings me to the living room. Picking colors was crazy. The furniture I have picked out is chocolate colored. Right now, my furniture is a very dirty beige color. I say this with a lot of love to my furniture because it is the furniture I acquired from a friend back in the year 2001. I think he had purchased it like in 1998. It has moved with me EVERYWHERE. The poor couches are not even couches anymore. Basically they are stacks of blankes in the couch frame with cushions on top of them. Ha Ha. So, new furniture is definetly in this game plan somewhere. But for now, the only color in the livingroom is beige (even the curtains). I took into consideration both the couches I have now and also the furniture I hope to have someday. I ended up narrowing it down to like 3 colors while I stood in Wal-Mart looking at swatches for over an hour (after spending an hour the night before doing the same thing at Home Depot). I finally chose a soft green, soft grey, and a cream color. Since I want some COLOR in my life I put back the creme and found a soft pinkish shade of purple. After conversing with Amber we decided green was more a kitchen color and purple was more of an "emotional" color and better for a personal area. So, I had the store associate mix me the grey color. But...I had my finger on the one under the one I wanted. So, I ended up with "Muted Violet Cast" (color name). I only got a quart to make sure that we liked it in the living room before I went all out.

I came home on Saturday evening and spackled the wall and then painted it. Guess what color it is.....PURPLE. Ha. It is a really soft smoky purple though. It is calming and I love it! I didn't have enough to finish the wall (did all but the trim stuff). Hold on, let me go see if I can take a picture of it.......Well, nevermind. You will just have to trust me. I can't get a picture that really shows the color but I love it. I can't wait until I buy more and paint the whole living room. We have wood paneling from the floor to halfway up each wall. I will be removing all of that and painting all the walls this color I think. We will see when that time comes I guess. I love when I take the opportunity to make my house feel like MY HOME.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

So Many and Yet So Few

I have been mentally trying to write this blog since last week. I have only physically been trying to write it for about 20 minutes. I kept thinking.....I have nothing to write about. Then every once in a while an idea will surface (like how hard it is to get to know teenage boys) or (accusing the non guilty) but then for some reason I could never committ to an idea. There are too many ideas on my brain and happening around me right now; just none of them seem blog worthy. But as I am typing ideas just keep coming (like all of the great grilling I have been doing or Brennen's cake). So, bear with me and let's see where this goes.

Over the past few weeks I have really been doing a lot of homemaker stuff which is kinda out of the ordinary for me. But it kinda started a couple of weeks ago when I wanted to grill. (I contribute this to having my brother-in-law, Nik grill really great tasting steaks while I was on vacation). So anyway, I pulled out the $7.00 grill we bought last summer and only used once. I think we found it at Wal-Greens towards the end of summer. It was originally like $14 but was clearanced out. It is a small charcoal grill. I guess you would call it a table top grill because I have it sitting on a table outside just so I can reach it. Even then, being as tall as I am (and not to mention how short the table is) I still have to sit down to reach it well.
Anyway, I love it! I grabbed it, some charcoal and started grilling. The 1st time I pulled it out, several weeks ago, I went to town. I grilled chicken breasts, hamburger patties, and hot dogs all in the same setting. I was way over zealous and we ate that meal for like 3 days. I used some "GRILLMATES" seasoning and loved it. I think Amber took a picture of me. Let's see if I can find it. Hold on. There it is.

The second week I went to grill but the dang charcoal had gotten wet during our rain storm (where it rained like almost daily for a week!) I thought I was in heaven. So, that stunk. But gues what.....I bought more charcoal this weekend. I ended up grilling some pork steak and also put corn on the grill. WOW!!!! That was a good meal! Those steaks came out so juicy and tender. They were awesome.

I was not the only one cooking this weekend though. Brennen has been bugging me to make a cake. Not just any cake. He wanted the "Triple Rich Chocolate Cake" made in the crock pot. I tried making this back in January and although it cooked very uneven it was pretty good. So, this time I doubled the recipe and had Brennen make it since he has been bugging and bugging for it. So, Saturday we made cake. It still cooked uneven. The outside burnt and the top didn't finish cooking. I don't get it. Anyway, after dinner everyone had cake. I think Brennen had like 3 pieces on Sunday. So, guess the cake wasn't a flop.

Let's see what I can come up with to grill this next week.

Friday, May 11, 2012

NARLEY

Today I was reminded of how old I am. I really don't feel old very often; but somedays it is very evident. Brennen and I were in the car today. He told me a story in which he held up his thumb and pinky close to his face and yelled at a perfect stranger to "call me". We won't even start to mention all of the potential lectures that could come out of this. Anyway, he story kinda ended with the stranger (a grown man) holding up his thumb and pinky and stating, "NARLEY!" Brennen says, "I guess he didn't understand what I said even though I showed him with my hand". I then had to explain to my very soon to be teenager that hand sign has meant Narley for a very long time. Of course, that followed with, "WHAT DOES NARLEY MEAN?" Are you kidding me????? So, yeah. I felt very old at this point. Thanks son!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Finally, My Final Destination

Thursday afternoon I headed to my sister's house.

Carla and Nik were both there to greet me. I think we were both really excited. I got the grand tour of thier beautiful home and church. We then cooked (ok, they cooked) my first homecooked meal since I had left home. Wow! It was really nice. Then we rushed off to the baby shower. For pictures, please see my sister's blog which I am sure you all have already seen. They received so many wonderful things. I met so many nice people who just adore them.

After the shower, we went home and reopened everything with Nik. I didn't think I would ever see my sister stay up that late!!!!!

I woke the next morning with an excrutiating headache. Sad, because this was the only day I got to spend with my sister. But luckily it eased pretty quickly. Yeah!!!! We headed out to spend a wonderful day together. Here is a picture of my beautiful "glowing" sister and my nephew that you can't see yet.



I had greek food for the first time ever. It was good. I agree with my sister.....I like Feta cheese on my salad. I liked the meat and was sad that the chicken was a little dry that day. I had ordered a sampler so I could sample a little of it all. Ha Ha! Humus was actually good. I didn't think I would like it but luckily Nik let me try his. I think Carla offered me his plate technically before he agreed but he seemed fine with it. (That makes me giggle). I really loved the gyro sauce they serve. Anyway, I could go on and on.....I liked it!!!!

After a little shopping, I took a short nap and had the craziest dream. I actually woke up sea sick from these dolphins spinning the ship I lived on round and round. So, I still haven't figured out if the greek food or all the headache medicine I had taken that day was responsible for that dream. I am just glad Carla woke me before it got any worse.

I did learn all about the BEST TEA ever!!!!!! (That makes me GIGGLE even more!) No, just kidding. But I do have to give it up to Busch's Chicken (I think that's what it was called). They have good tea and GREAT happy hours. I helped Carla and Nik prepare for thier rumage sale that night.

On Saturday after taking my time that morning, I left Temple, TX. Granted, I left the wrong direction. After ending up in Fort Worth, I started on the right way and finally made it home about 9:30 that night.

Overall, I had a great time. I really needed that vacation. I love my family so much and enjoy every time I get to see them (even it is for only an hour sometimes)!!!!

Saturday, May 5, 2012

To Grandmother's House I Go

On Sunday morning after a slow wake up, Karen, Joshua and I cleaned the whole car. I had spilt a 44oz drink in the car. So, we detailed it. I would like to take this moment in time to say that BABY WIPES really work well when cleaning the car dash, upholstery, and all! When the boys left for church, I left too. I had a good drive over the Interstate to my Mamaw's house.

I was glad to see that my Mamaw was feeling better when I got there. I got to visit with Aunt Pam for about half an hour. After a short Sonic run she and Savannah left. Then it was just Mamaw and Me!!!! Everyone knows how spoiled I am. And trust me. I really need my "Mamaw Time"! Anyway, I got to be there for her when she needed me. She didn't feel to well and was just on the road to recovery. We spent most of our days in the doctor's office but then we had our evenings. We watched television and visited. I love just spending time with her. I got to stay till Thursday. She is so special to me. Here is a picture I have of her and my Papaw on thier wedding day. I got it while there.




More Vacation

Ok. I apologize! Tomorrow turned into like almost 2 weeks later. I didn't really have time while I was gone to blog and then when I got back, I had a lot of catching up to do.

Anyway, I will start with the time I spent with Karen, Joey, and the BOYS. After we picked up Nichols, we went back to the house for a quick breakfast of homemade banana nut bread and fresh strawberries. Then we went shopping for the baby shower that was quickly approaching. I did find several thing that stated what an AWESOME AUNT Jax would have. (For those of you who do not read Carla's blog, which I highly recommend...."Jax"en will be my nephew's name when he arrives). After shopping (which I have learned is my sister's favorite past time), Nicholas picked out where we would have lunch.

Nicholas picked out a place called Genghis's Grill. I had never been there before but both of the kids love it. It is a buffet of raw meat, veggies, spice, and sauces. You can make your own recipe or follow thier suggested recipe cards. Then they put your food on this huge grill slab thing and cook it. Then they bring it to you. It was actually SO GOOD. Nicholas really enjoyed teaching me to eat with chopsticks. Here are some pictures:




After lunch we took the boys and Joey back to the house for naps. I shoulda stayed and took one as well, but I didn't. I needed some one on one quality time with Karen. So, we went to the spas. After pedicures, we went shopping. I actually ended up with a good bargain. A really cute shirt for $10. I then got to take Karen to her first Starbucks. Can you believe she has one less than 2 blocks from her house and has never been!!!!!! Anyway, we got afternoon treats and went home. I really think that venti java chip frappechino helped me get through the rest of the afternoon.

I got to spend time with the boys....Nicholas and I attempted to learn a magic trick. I actually got pretty good at one. Too bad Joshua was the only one that was impressed. Ha ha. Joshua and I painted his piggy bank. Joshua designed it and picked the colors. I just help even them out. He did awesome. I had a great afternoon. I think Karen was going to cook but somehow we ended up at Joshua's favorite place to eat. Rosa's Tortilla Factory. It was really pretty good. I know good mexican food is hard to come by in Texas but this place was really good. Joshua showed me where they made tortillas. It was cool. After dinner we went shopping again. Ha ha ha. I never shop so much as when I am with my best friend. Don't get me wrong. I am surely not complaining. I found some really great deals. A pair of shoes for $16 and another shirt for $6. But then it was definately time to go home. With a glass of wine we went over our new treasures and then prepared for the next day.


I love them so much!!!!!!!!!! I always enjoy my time with them. In an earlier post I talked about spending Good Friday with them in Carlsbad. Here are a few pictures from that: