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Tomorrow...A day of both sadness and joy

Tomorrow is Brennen's 12th birthday.  Two years ago Brennen advised me that he did not want to celebrate his birthday (or any other holiday for that matter).  Talk about a mother's heart breaking!  How can a person that I love so much NOT WANT to celebrate the very day that they were given to me.  To celebrate the anniversary of our bonding.  To celebrate WHO HE IS and WILL BECOME.  I learned at that moment, in the Dollar Tree party section, that birthdays are not about how old you are or about anything other than celebrating you as a person.  Someone whom I care very deeply for told me about 4 years ago.....
 -I want to celebrate you for your birthday
My response - No, I don't want a party
-Fine but can we just make the week about you
What????
-Just to celebrate who you are

Needless to say I did not get it and just looked at them like they were crazy.  Now I get it. 
Last year on this day I CELEBRATED.  I bought a purple cake and celebrated becoming a mom 11 years ago.  This year has been easier (which I am sure it will continue being as time goes on) but still it lingers....Celebrate for myself, or just let it go with a warm feeling in my heart and a tear in my eye. 
I know this sounds depressing and it is really not.  Just wishing he would see what a wonderful person he is and want to acknowledge that. 

Speaking of Brennen......
This past weekend he asked to attend his first dance.  It was a dance for all of the middle schools.  It was so cute watching him watch the clock.  When the time came for him to get dressed....he actually asked HIS MOM which shirt he should wear!  I was floored.  I never thought I would see the day.  Do you know he actually put gel in what little hair he has.
Then the downer came.  He had the wrong day.  As we got out of the car and could hear the music we both looked at each other because the music was in Spanish.  As we got closer we see people dancing.....in wedding attire!  Once back in the car Brenn declared......."I am despaired!"  Yeah, I had to buy him some ice cream and then all was well again.  It was so much fun watching him go through these emotions.  It still brings a smile to my face.

I have been INSPIRED!

After reading my sister's blog for the past few months I have decided to start one.  I am going to think about this as a journal.  I guess it is not really for anyone to read (although that is okay if you do).  I think about things I just want to put out a lot.  So, here is my cheap shot at it.  We will see how it goes. 

Thanks for the Idea.  I love you Sister.

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